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The Miracle of my Father's Death

(Edward R. Adelson, circa 1934)
When I was a child, my father and I had no real relationship, we simply did not understand each other. 

He never knew how to effectively relate to children or how to deal with unpredictable emotions (especially his own) and he was of a generation that believed children were the sole responsibility of their mother and that anyone under 20 should be seen and not heard. In his perception of life, his role was to provide for his family and he did so well. 

The little exposure I had to him in my youth was uncomfortable, ackward and intimidating. Now I know that what I had interpreted as him being distant and emotionless towards me specifically was really a display of his general uneasiness with children and their unpredictable emotions. Emotions seemed to be his own personal form of Kryptonite. This discomfort with feelings was especially intense with any expression of affection towards him, or even when affection was expressed near him. 

When I was 9 my parent…

The Heart of Charity

Prior to my baptism one aspect of the LDS church that deeply inspired me during my investigation was the church's emphasis on service. 
Rather than my going into the details of the many service programs the church has created or expound on the myriad of opportunities we as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints have been afforded to serve, or rather than describe how we have been commanded to be of service, I prefer to offer this quote by President Uchtdorf that I feel captures the general essence of service in light of the true Gospel of Jesus Christ.
“Preaching is fine, but sermons that do not lead to action are like fires without heat or water that cannot quench thirst. It is in the application of doctrine that the purifying flame of the gospel grows…”
Serving others is the one of the truest application of the doctrine of Christ.
We are all called to serve, and to serve with all we have and are, but beyond the obvious and holy purpose of easing the burdens …

Love Thy Neighbor as Thy Self

Mark 12:28-34
“And one of the scribes came, and having heard them reasoning together, and perceiving that he had answered them well, asked him, Which is the first commandment of all? And Jesus answered him, The first of all the commandments is, Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God is one Lord: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.  And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.  And the scribe said unto him, Well, Master, thou hast said the truth: for there is one God; and there is none other but he:  And to love him with all the heart, and with all the understanding, and with all the soul, and with all the strength, and to love his neighbour as himself, is more than all whole burnt offerings and sacrifices.  And when Jesus saw that he answered discreetly, he said unto him, Thou art no…

The Lightning Bolt of Conversion

One of the many tattoos I have is of a Dorje. A Dorje is a type of weapon mentioned in one of the four canonical Hindu texts. The Dorje was the weapon of the ancient god Indra, (the god of heaven).
According to the text, Indra would use the weapon to kill sinners and ignorant persons. In Vaj-ra-ya-na Buddhism the Dorje or as they call it the Vajra, is used as their representational symbol. This path of Buddhism is referred to as the “Thunderbolt Way" with the ‘thunderbolt’ being enlightenment -  One moment I am not enlightened, and in the next momentI am no matter how long it took to get there.
I got the tattoo after a few trips to India and Nepal, because, I had a personal spiritual  'thunderbolt' experience - a deep experience of being released from suffering.
At the time and in my own arrogant ignorance, I had the belief that I had reached my spiritual peak, an experience where my consciousness had been released from a significant portion of the suffering caused by my a…